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Jun 26, 2010
Childhood-Story:
From age 3 - at bedtime - I tell Monet stories from my childhood.
I ask her what age she wants me to be in the story - then I remember.
"5". .1943, .OK. .
Mom has the measles. She has red spots all over her body.
The Doctor comes; she must stay in the dark, be taken care of, and
she will be fine.I bring Edie grapefruit for 3 days.
From age 3 - at bedtime - I tell Monet stories from my childhood.
I ask her what age she wants me to be in the story - then I remember.
"5". .1943, .OK. .
Mom has the measles. She has red spots all over her body.
The Doctor comes; she must stay in the dark, be taken care of, and
she will be fine.I bring Edie grapefruit for 3 days.
Jun 19, 2010
Jun 15, 2010
Jun 14, 2010
Jun 12, 2010
Wonderful New Tenant:
First-'Reported'-Slug-Inside-The-Castle-In-25-Years ! .You da Man, A ! .And da Man, not picky-squeamish, .will receive extra attention! .With a Smile, Dude - You deserve it! .Slugo is poison - don't wanna compromise other aspects of your life. I put some outta your reach - rt of sink, way back & across 'front' door way. .Keep slippers n flip-flops handy - slide feet ? - night light ? - call kinglette! .Singing, "WE SHALL OVER...THIS GET TOGETHER" ! .A, If you get back at a decent hour, 8 - 11pm and are in your usual Socialist-Sci-Guy-Mood : summon me - I bring treasure ! 5 mins ! .(In any event, no offense taken here with 'no summons'! . Another kludgin' time !) Rest up, A.. An eventful night w/o contact-lenes in the offing (of slugs), .Bill
First-'Reported'-Slug-Inside-The-Castle-In-25-Years ! .You da Man, A ! .And da Man, not picky-squeamish, .will receive extra attention! .With a Smile, Dude - You deserve it! .Slugo is poison - don't wanna compromise other aspects of your life. I put some outta your reach - rt of sink, way back & across 'front' door way. .Keep slippers n flip-flops handy - slide feet ? - night light ? - call kinglette! .Singing, "WE SHALL OVER...THIS GET TOGETHER" ! .A, If you get back at a decent hour, 8 - 11pm and are in your usual Socialist-Sci-Guy-Mood : summon me - I bring treasure ! 5 mins ! .(In any event, no offense taken here with 'no summons'! . Another kludgin' time !) Rest up, A.. An eventful night w/o contact-lenes in the offing (of slugs), .Bill
Jun 10, 2010
I log:
Tar-driftwood-stones-seaweed-sand-shells-shorebirds-crabs-starfish-and then in order of find with No Duplications Allowed:."Keep Out" buoy, stingray carcass, dead seal, tennis ball, Bud beer can, chunk of foam, seagull wing, bright green cloth entangled in silver cable, huge crab claw, feather, bamboo stick, rusty pipe in 3' concrete block, crushed plastic coated wire cylinder, 1/2 gal plastic bottle, pink foam flip-flop, 5" x 9' black rubber banding, lizard, pine cone, film canister, 5" pink plastic tube heart, palm branch, 10' rusty 4"diameter pipe with a pointed end, 11' rusty steel girder, 2' diameter stone model of 'Stonehenge', apple core, 3/4 of a Rt. b&w Nike, 17" of motorbike tire, toy tire wheel, 1' scrap of naugahyde boat cover, 2" x 1" x 9" plastic box, fiberglass surfboard fragment, bottom only of a 20" fisherman's boot, 5' x 6' piece of jagged tar paper, 750ml Bacardi bottle, 5' nasty carpet bundle, plaid shirt fragment in wire mesh, red plastic comb w/handle, piece of gray plastic trashcan lid, 7' fragment of black felt, yellow Bic lighter, 6" yellow toy shovel, yellow plastic rope mess, 4' x 5' x 2' crab trap, 3' black rubber hose, left med gray fabric glove, rt leg of blue pants, used napkin, pink plastic bubble blower, pelican carcass, piece of white pom pom, Starbucks big cup, tin foil clump, airless red balloon, green stuff in a 1qt Bell jar, orange peel, rusty linkchain between 4' rusty posts, real big tractor tire, 3' concrete chunk w/embedded rebar, tangle of hemp rope around 2' white plastic pipe, real neatly stacked dog shit, 12' x 12' concrete slab w/3' pipe hole dated 1927, 'rescued' n happy: 3 Great Danes & a huge deaf white Pitbull, tied off green plastic bag w/dogshit?, baby seal seemingly almost dead-just croaked at me-what to do at 11:30AM -nature- 5:30 PM gone after high tide, Dragon graffiti on sea wall (there since at least '79), cartilage, umbrellas, 9 surfers: some old guys-women-Latinos-yes!, diving pelican, orange coral, big conch filled with tar. And folks, I've been on this beach since 1942, never before: for 5 days - at different times- this, 'back n forth, whirling and twirling, up n down the beach, non stop, amazing dancing woman !' Rincon Point, Carpenteria
Tar-driftwood-stones-seaweed-sand-shells-shorebirds-crabs-starfish-and then in order of find with No Duplications Allowed:."Keep Out" buoy, stingray carcass, dead seal, tennis ball, Bud beer can, chunk of foam, seagull wing, bright green cloth entangled in silver cable, huge crab claw, feather, bamboo stick, rusty pipe in 3' concrete block, crushed plastic coated wire cylinder, 1/2 gal plastic bottle, pink foam flip-flop, 5" x 9' black rubber banding, lizard, pine cone, film canister, 5" pink plastic tube heart, palm branch, 10' rusty 4"diameter pipe with a pointed end, 11' rusty steel girder, 2' diameter stone model of 'Stonehenge', apple core, 3/4 of a Rt. b&w Nike, 17" of motorbike tire, toy tire wheel, 1' scrap of naugahyde boat cover, 2" x 1" x 9" plastic box, fiberglass surfboard fragment, bottom only of a 20" fisherman's boot, 5' x 6' piece of jagged tar paper, 750ml Bacardi bottle, 5' nasty carpet bundle, plaid shirt fragment in wire mesh, red plastic comb w/handle, piece of gray plastic trashcan lid, 7' fragment of black felt, yellow Bic lighter, 6" yellow toy shovel, yellow plastic rope mess, 4' x 5' x 2' crab trap, 3' black rubber hose, left med gray fabric glove, rt leg of blue pants, used napkin, pink plastic bubble blower, pelican carcass, piece of white pom pom, Starbucks big cup, tin foil clump, airless red balloon, green stuff in a 1qt Bell jar, orange peel, rusty linkchain between 4' rusty posts, real big tractor tire, 3' concrete chunk w/embedded rebar, tangle of hemp rope around 2' white plastic pipe, real neatly stacked dog shit, 12' x 12' concrete slab w/3' pipe hole dated 1927, 'rescued' n happy: 3 Great Danes & a huge deaf white Pitbull, tied off green plastic bag w/dogshit?, baby seal seemingly almost dead-just croaked at me-what to do at 11:30AM -nature- 5:30 PM gone after high tide, Dragon graffiti on sea wall (there since at least '79), cartilage, umbrellas, 9 surfers: some old guys-women-Latinos-yes!, diving pelican, orange coral, big conch filled with tar. And folks, I've been on this beach since 1942, never before: for 5 days - at different times- this, 'back n forth, whirling and twirling, up n down the beach, non stop, amazing dancing woman !' Rincon Point, Carpenteria
Jun 9, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1944, I'm 7 - It could be A. Phillip Randolf himself !Mom takes Frankie and me on the train from LA to Boston.
Black men help us.
Sleeping car sleeping ! White table cloth dining, silverware, water.
Men in military uniform drinking and smoking in special cars - I roam and spy.
He gives me a stick of real Wrigley's Spearmint Gum. I know the War.
Then to Kennebunkport, Maine, to stay at the Dane 'beach house'.
The Atlantic Ocean is chopping-splashing. It will let us swim, "Watch it !"
I am more than free to climb the rocks, find friends, fish , eat hot dogs.
It goes hours without seeing a relative. We smoke coffee in straws.
Pinball machines are big-color-fantasy. We row boats, crawl the sand.
A bandaid does for my palm what 15 stitches should. It still looks nasty-good !
1944, I'm 7 - It could be A. Phillip Randolf himself !Mom takes Frankie and me on the train from LA to Boston.
Black men help us.
Sleeping car sleeping ! White table cloth dining, silverware, water.
Men in military uniform drinking and smoking in special cars - I roam and spy.
He gives me a stick of real Wrigley's Spearmint Gum. I know the War.
Then to Kennebunkport, Maine, to stay at the Dane 'beach house'.
The Atlantic Ocean is chopping-splashing. It will let us swim, "Watch it !"
I am more than free to climb the rocks, find friends, fish , eat hot dogs.
It goes hours without seeing a relative. We smoke coffee in straws.
Pinball machines are big-color-fantasy. We row boats, crawl the sand.
A bandaid does for my palm what 15 stitches should. It still looks nasty-good !
Jun 8, 2010
Jury-Rigged/Jerry-Rigged:You know the game,. a word-phrase starts with a person
and gets whispered around the circle
"jury-rigged" .could become ."jerry-rigged"In his writings the 1616 John Smith uses "jury" (nautical) as "rigged"
Plus! clinging to my family tree - both sides Mayflower - he marries Pocahontas .
Gifting me Native-Anglo "rigging" !
Don't folks just make this stuff up and send it to Salt Lake City ? Thank you A,. "kludge" will work just fine - never mind "jerry-rigged"
and gets whispered around the circle
"jury-rigged" .could become ."jerry-rigged"In his writings the 1616 John Smith uses "jury" (nautical) as "rigged"
Plus! clinging to my family tree - both sides Mayflower - he marries Pocahontas .
Gifting me Native-Anglo "rigging" !
Don't folks just make this stuff up and send it to Salt Lake City ? Thank you A,. "kludge" will work just fine - never mind "jerry-rigged"
Jun 5, 2010
BILLDANE.COM - SIDESHOW 'views'I bought this Flickr-view-check service a few months ago.
At SIDESHOW the 1982 picture from the Ivar Theater
has recorded 250 'views'. . All others have 0-15 views !Garry Winogrand pictured - could be relevant ?
I have 100s of 'marginal' Ivar pictures somewhere(some with Garry - Garry has some with me).
Do I owe it to my family to dig 'em out n hustle ?!
Never mind.
At SIDESHOW the 1982 picture from the Ivar Theater
has recorded 250 'views'. . All others have 0-15 views !Garry Winogrand pictured - could be relevant ?
I have 100s of 'marginal' Ivar pictures somewhere(some with Garry - Garry has some with me).
Do I owe it to my family to dig 'em out n hustle ?!
Never mind.
Jun 4, 2010
Childhood-Story:
Bad DreamsFrom '1941 - '1965 they are usually about war battles and escape.
During the Korean War I actually start jumping out windows - asleep.
This is not good in hotels - in the army - I stack chairs against windows.
That stops around '65 when teaching dreams take over !
I'm always struggling to maintain order.
Don't have the slightest idea what I'm supposed to teach.
Nothing works.
I still have them - Even with Subbing - Anxious every time - Too bad, BillyBoy.
And then there's cuckoldings and my children in danger.
Bad DreamsFrom '1941 - '1965 they are usually about war battles and escape.
During the Korean War I actually start jumping out windows - asleep.
This is not good in hotels - in the army - I stack chairs against windows.
That stops around '65 when teaching dreams take over !
I'm always struggling to maintain order.
Don't have the slightest idea what I'm supposed to teach.
Nothing works.
I still have them - Even with Subbing - Anxious every time - Too bad, BillyBoy.
And then there's cuckoldings and my children in danger.
Jun 2, 2010
We rent an in-law-apartment in our house - Survival!We have a new 2 year Chemistry PhD Guy - good fellow - til 2012.
Getting a new tenant apparently means working for 3 weeks. Fun.
He gets an eccentric place with funkies aplenty ! I work on it.It's that very fine feeling: making-doing-with-head-and-hands.
Keep finding new stuff to improve. Good times.
Getting a new tenant apparently means working for 3 weeks. Fun.
He gets an eccentric place with funkies aplenty ! I work on it.It's that very fine feeling: making-doing-with-head-and-hands.
Keep finding new stuff to improve. Good times.
Childhood-Story:
1950, Jack Hawley
Edie knows people.
The frustrated psychologist and the parents need a home for their boy.My Single Mother 'relieves' them all.Jack is big, strong, 13 and psychotic.
We shoot baskets together for hours.
Jack stares at himself in the mirror.
I show him how to do our 7th grade at Wilson.
He never bothers me - knows I'm kinda ...
Jack's last minutes in our house:
He's alone with mellow-comfortable brother Frankie, 10.
Jack has Frankie on the floor choking . screaming
'The answer ?! ..What's the answer ?! ..Tell me how you do it !'
The neighbor who never passes through our yard ..does .saves Frankie.
Three years later Jack chops up his mother. Dives into a 60mph-16 wheeler.
1950, Jack Hawley
Edie knows people.
The frustrated psychologist and the parents need a home for their boy.My Single Mother 'relieves' them all.Jack is big, strong, 13 and psychotic.
We shoot baskets together for hours.
Jack stares at himself in the mirror.
I show him how to do our 7th grade at Wilson.
He never bothers me - knows I'm kinda ...
Jack's last minutes in our house:
He's alone with mellow-comfortable brother Frankie, 10.
Jack has Frankie on the floor choking . screaming
'The answer ?! ..What's the answer ?! ..Tell me how you do it !'
The neighbor who never passes through our yard ..does .saves Frankie.
Three years later Jack chops up his mother. Dives into a 60mph-16 wheeler.
Jun 1, 2010
May 31, 2010
2007 .A BEGINNING
The Website concept arrived when Monet and Nick
told me the Internet would get my pictures out there.
And I realized, would take me another step beyond
critic - gallery - museum - publisher decisions.
A process I'd started with the photo-postcard mailing in 1969.Yes ! All of the pictures I want you to see will be on the Website,
from 1964 to the present. (I have to 'never-mind' all the 'lost' pictures)Nick Jarvis Powers does computer-form-content-humor-music-spirit
while I sit second chair wondering how he does it, over 'n over again.
We hope you will share the experience.
The Website concept arrived when Monet and Nick
told me the Internet would get my pictures out there.
And I realized, would take me another step beyond
critic - gallery - museum - publisher decisions.
A process I'd started with the photo-postcard mailing in 1969.Yes ! All of the pictures I want you to see will be on the Website,
from 1964 to the present. (I have to 'never-mind' all the 'lost' pictures)Nick Jarvis Powers does computer-form-content-humor-music-spirit
while I sit second chair wondering how he does it, over 'n over again.
We hope you will share the experience.
...Dear Monet and Nick,
...You sure started something !
...Thank you so much.
...Love, BillDad
...You sure started something !
...Thank you so much.
...Love, BillDad
BILL DANE PHOTOGRAPHS OUTSIDE INSIDE
VOLUME 1 DEDICATION
JOHN SZARKOWSKI
...My VOLUME 1 is dedicated to you John.
These are the pictures you knew and supported.
...You All helped me to understand and made me feel
part of something before I could know what it was:
Edith Thacher Dane, Patrick Siler, Bill Burback,
Bill Mott-Smith, Lea A. Bartneck, Ron Goldstein,
Nora Fanshel, Camille Zulpo, John FitzGibbon,
Joan Rosenbaum, Diana Edkins, Ben Lifson, Henry Wessel,
Tod Papageorge, Diane Arbus, Lee Friedlander,
and you John.
...Thank you to the above and the following
for validating my explorations: Nancy Dulberg,
Jeffrey Fraenkel, Frish Brandt, Fraenkel Gallery Folks,
Alain Dupuy, Tom Garver, Leo Rubinfien, Ann Swidler,
Elliott Linwood, Carlos Gollonet, Sandra Phillips,
Pamela Bonino, Jack Fischer, Vagn Sparre-Ulrich,
Nick Jarvis Powers, Monet Zulpo-Dane, You,
and so many Others !
...I hope that my sense of this life in the form of
these pictures turns out to be worth sharing.
My Pleasure, Bill
VOLUME 1 DEDICATION
JOHN SZARKOWSKI
...My VOLUME 1 is dedicated to you John.
These are the pictures you knew and supported.
...You All helped me to understand and made me feel
part of something before I could know what it was:
Edith Thacher Dane, Patrick Siler, Bill Burback,
Bill Mott-Smith, Lea A. Bartneck, Ron Goldstein,
Nora Fanshel, Camille Zulpo, John FitzGibbon,
Joan Rosenbaum, Diana Edkins, Ben Lifson, Henry Wessel,
Tod Papageorge, Diane Arbus, Lee Friedlander,
and you John.
...Thank you to the above and the following
for validating my explorations: Nancy Dulberg,
Jeffrey Fraenkel, Frish Brandt, Fraenkel Gallery Folks,
Alain Dupuy, Tom Garver, Leo Rubinfien, Ann Swidler,
Elliott Linwood, Carlos Gollonet, Sandra Phillips,
Pamela Bonino, Jack Fischer, Vagn Sparre-Ulrich,
Nick Jarvis Powers, Monet Zulpo-Dane, You,
and so many Others !
...I hope that my sense of this life in the form of
these pictures turns out to be worth sharing.
My Pleasure, Bill
Ben Lifson sent me the following after he received my Website invite.
Luckily he said I could quote him:
Dear Bill
Thank you very much indeed for having sent me this link to your work.
I've had time this morning to look only at the most recent Volume 9.
This is not only excellent work but also among the most important current photography I've seen ...
I can think of nothing better and very little even in the same league...
I can't think of anything this strong, wide-ranging (what a net you're casting over our culture!), surprising (no sensibility more open)...
Of subject matter so various...
Of style so flexible...
Of literacy (w/ respect to photography, painting and popular imagery) so vast and deep...
Of variations on motifs and themes so strenuous and searching...
Of compositions so original but w/ roots so obviously in the great past...
And so on.
Yours is history at its best, committed, passionate, & the kind of making that makes Gibbon and Clarendon also monuments of English imaginative prose. (See Clarendon's famous account of the assassination of the Duke of Buckingham.)
Documentary? Yes, of course. But in the sense of Ezra Pound's statement, when he called poetry (or, perhaps, literature generally) "News that stays news."
It deserves to be universally known.
What plans for exhibitions (here, abroad), books? Keep me posted.
Thank you again. This is strong, significant work and a good jolt on a Sunday morning.
"Once out of nature I shall never take
My bodily form from any natural thing,
But such a form as Grecian goldsmiths make
Of hammered gold and gold enamaling
To keep a drowsy emperor awake..."
William Butler Yeats, Sailing to Byzantium
Good to hear from you.
yrs,
Ben
Luckily he said I could quote him:
Dear Bill
Thank you very much indeed for having sent me this link to your work.
I've had time this morning to look only at the most recent Volume 9.
This is not only excellent work but also among the most important current photography I've seen ...
I can think of nothing better and very little even in the same league...
I can't think of anything this strong, wide-ranging (what a net you're casting over our culture!), surprising (no sensibility more open)...
Of subject matter so various...
Of style so flexible...
Of literacy (w/ respect to photography, painting and popular imagery) so vast and deep...
Of variations on motifs and themes so strenuous and searching...
Of compositions so original but w/ roots so obviously in the great past...
And so on.
Yours is history at its best, committed, passionate, & the kind of making that makes Gibbon and Clarendon also monuments of English imaginative prose. (See Clarendon's famous account of the assassination of the Duke of Buckingham.)
Documentary? Yes, of course. But in the sense of Ezra Pound's statement, when he called poetry (or, perhaps, literature generally) "News that stays news."
It deserves to be universally known.
What plans for exhibitions (here, abroad), books? Keep me posted.
Thank you again. This is strong, significant work and a good jolt on a Sunday morning.
"Once out of nature I shall never take
My bodily form from any natural thing,
But such a form as Grecian goldsmiths make
Of hammered gold and gold enamaling
To keep a drowsy emperor awake..."
William Butler Yeats, Sailing to Byzantium
Good to hear from you.
yrs,
Ben
May 29, 2010
What are you up to. down there
What are you down for. up there
The politics of existence - chaos-order-
loss-grief-anger-anxiety-sadness-
sex-love-pleasure-hope-health-death-
histories-circumstances-perspectives
It's about the timely encounter with pieces:
Brecht-Tebaldi-Chomsky-Van Gogh-Warhol-
Godard-Boll-King-Dylan-the Blues-Frank-
Arbus-Friedlander-Winogrand-Evans-Atget
and so many others and so much more !
It's about Context
Framing
Light
Tension between forces-ingredients-opposers
It's about JS's ''The Photographers's Eye'' and
''Looking At Photographs''
Treasure hunting our 'Mirrors and Windows'
Outside Inside
Focus
Intuition
Diffused vision
Walking and Looking and Finding 'It'
Seeing what 'It' looks like photographed
Editing
Me and the Image and You
What are you down for. up there
The politics of existence - chaos-order-
loss-grief-anger-anxiety-sadness-
sex-love-pleasure-hope-health-death-
histories-circumstances-perspectives
It's about the timely encounter with pieces:
Brecht-Tebaldi-Chomsky-Van Gogh-Warhol-
Godard-Boll-King-Dylan-the Blues-Frank-
Arbus-Friedlander-Winogrand-Evans-Atget
and so many others and so much more !
It's about Context
Framing
Light
Tension between forces-ingredients-opposers
It's about JS's ''The Photographers's Eye'' and
''Looking At Photographs''
Treasure hunting our 'Mirrors and Windows'
Outside Inside
Focus
Intuition
Diffused vision
Walking and Looking and Finding 'It'
Seeing what 'It' looks like photographed
Editing
Me and the Image and You
From Russell Banks' Introduction to his "The Angel on the Roof".
One of the most difficult things to say to another person is, I hope that you will love me for no good reason. But it is what we all want and rarely dare to say to one another - to our children, to our parents and mates, to our friends, and to strangers. Especially to strangers, who have neither good nor bad reasons to love us. And it's why we tell each other stories that we pray will be transformed in the telling by that angel on the roof, made believable and about us all, no matter who we are to one another and who we are not.
I Street Walk to find pictures = Hunt and Release.
I believe I'd be called a "Straight Still Photographer".
(Perhaps, "Bi ....." or "Still Straight .....")
Using a digital Nikon D80 since '07,
I edit, crop and tweak with 'iPhoto8'.
(Moses told me he could get me Photoshop free -
I thanked him and no thanked him)
Pictures then go to Pictopia for "normalizing",
Volume creation, but apparently not
to print for Shows & Sales !
Buy, .Bill ..Sorry!. Bye, .Bill
(Heart and emotions on soiled sleeves)
I believe I'd be called a "Straight Still Photographer".
(Perhaps, "Bi ....." or "Still Straight .....")
Using a digital Nikon D80 since '07,
I edit, crop and tweak with 'iPhoto8'.
(Moses told me he could get me Photoshop free -
I thanked him and no thanked him)
Pictures then go to Pictopia for "normalizing",
Volume creation, but apparently not
to print for Shows & Sales !
Buy, .Bill ..Sorry!. Bye, .Bill
(Heart and emotions on soiled sleeves)
PHOTO POSTCARDS
Since 1969
I've mailed my pictures as postcards
to ensure an audience beyond
the decisions of others.
Now, we have the Internet and the Website.
Theoretically, this makes my pictures really
accessible to folks everywhere and forever.
I figure the number of photo postcards mailed
must be close to +- 69,000. ... (recycled?!).
I've usually mailed +- 3 of any one image.
There are 1,000 + pictures here at
BILL DANE PHOTOGRAPHS OUTSIDE INSIDE
There are 1000s of other 'lost-to-me' pictures
'edited-out' over the years - gone - no negatives.
The '07-'08 MoMA Show included several.
It's strange fun this way.
Wish I had 'em back ? - some days - but -
they'll show up here n there - perhaps.
Editing is way harder than I think it is.
Bill
Since 1969
I've mailed my pictures as postcards
to ensure an audience beyond
the decisions of others.
Now, we have the Internet and the Website.
Theoretically, this makes my pictures really
accessible to folks everywhere and forever.
I figure the number of photo postcards mailed
must be close to +- 69,000. ... (recycled?!).
I've usually mailed +- 3 of any one image.
There are 1,000 + pictures here at
BILL DANE PHOTOGRAPHS OUTSIDE INSIDE
There are 1000s of other 'lost-to-me' pictures
'edited-out' over the years - gone - no negatives.
The '07-'08 MoMA Show included several.
It's strange fun this way.
Wish I had 'em back ? - some days - but -
they'll show up here n there - perhaps.
Editing is way harder than I think it is.
Bill
May 28, 2010
PEOPLE!
NORA FANSHEL
ED BLACKBURN
MARY SNOWDEN
THOMAS AKAWIE
JIM MELCHERT
STEPHEN LAUB
LENI SCHWENDINGER
JOEL SELVIN
ED BLACKBURN
MARY SNOWDEN
THOMAS AKAWIE
JIM MELCHERT
STEPHEN LAUB
LENI SCHWENDINGER
JOEL SELVIN
JOAN ROSENBAUM
DIANE ARBUS
LEE FRIEDLANDER
DIANA EDKINS
JOHN SZARKOWSKI.
HENRY WESSEL
BEN LIFSON
GIANCARLO MORI
TOD PAPAGEORGE
LEO RUBINFIEN
GARRY WINOGRAND
PAUL McDONOUGH
THOMAS ROMA
ARMANDO PRADO
JACK DOLLHAUSEN
OSHA NEUMANN
JANET WINANS
BRETT COOK
JEFFREY KAMARA
ROB ALBRITTON
FREIDA LEE MOCK
BILL MATTICK
JEFF NORRIS
LINDA KLETNIECE
TATIANA PARNIAKOVA
JIN ZHU .and. "killeryellow.com"
ROSALIE Z FANSHEL
CYNTHIA MANSOURIAN
REV RABIA
MONICA PAINTER
JAY SMOOTH
JAMES DANZIGER PROJECTS
MARK POWELL
NORA, BILL MOTT, PATRICK, OSHA
ESTHER'S 'Final Project' - Oxbow School - Napa, '09
MOSES' Band "A Cure For The Mondays" w Benson and Kyle, '08
ASSOCIATED GALLERIES:FRAENKEL GALLERY
JACK FISCHER GALLERY
VAGN SPARRE-ULRICH GALLERY
BILLDANE.COM GALLERY
NICK POWERS sleepingcobra Design
ERIK AUERBACH InColor - Photo Services
BRYAN BAILEY .Photo Services - Digital Imaging
PICTOPIA. Photo Services
GREEN FOR ALL .. Monet and Phaedra + All
ELLA BAKER CENTER FOR HUMAN RIGHTS .. "J" + All
PEOPLE! AROUND OUR WORLD!
H a i t i
C h i l i
D a r f u r
P a l e s t i n e
I r a qA f g a h a n i s t a nAll Our Neighbors
Oakland To Mumbai
Kehilla Community Synagogue
Tikkun ...Jewish Voice For Peace
Got to KEEP ON TRUCKIN' ...
DIANE ARBUS
LEE FRIEDLANDER
DIANA EDKINS
JOHN SZARKOWSKI.
HENRY WESSEL
BEN LIFSON
GIANCARLO MORI
TOD PAPAGEORGE
LEO RUBINFIEN
GARRY WINOGRAND
PAUL McDONOUGH
THOMAS ROMA
ARMANDO PRADO
JACK DOLLHAUSEN
OSHA NEUMANN
JANET WINANS
BRETT COOK
JEFFREY KAMARA
ROB ALBRITTON
FREIDA LEE MOCK
BILL MATTICK
JEFF NORRIS
LINDA KLETNIECE
TATIANA PARNIAKOVA
JIN ZHU .and. "killeryellow.com"
ROSALIE Z FANSHEL
CYNTHIA MANSOURIAN
REV RABIA
MONICA PAINTER
JAY SMOOTH
JAMES DANZIGER PROJECTS
MARK POWELL
NORA, BILL MOTT, PATRICK, OSHA
ESTHER'S 'Final Project' - Oxbow School - Napa, '09
MOSES' Band "A Cure For The Mondays" w Benson and Kyle, '08
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P a l e s t i n e
I r a qA f g a h a n i s t a nAll Our Neighbors
Oakland To Mumbai
Kehilla Community Synagogue
Tikkun ...Jewish Voice For Peace
Got to KEEP ON TRUCKIN' ...
2004
Esther and Moses ...Bat and Bar Mitzvah
Blessing:
Dear Esther.. Dear Moses
We are very lucky
Many blessings. many gifts
We are here
We are with you
We are here with a wonderful Kehilla
Today you lead us
Thank you very much
Over the centuries millions of people have lived and died to keep culture for us
We live with Pam's light
Your Grandma Edie struggled every day to repair human nature's failures
Racism . Poverty . Intolerance . Injustice
May you find your own Albert Einstein. your own Rosa Parks. Bob Dylan.. Malcolm X
May you find your own Kehilla
May you discover great and ordinary people to inspire your fine instincts feelings thoughts and actions
Dear Moses .. Dear Esther
Keep on becoming your most wonderful selves
I love you ..Dad
Esther and Moses ...Bat and Bar Mitzvah
Blessing:
Dear Esther.. Dear Moses
We are very lucky
Many blessings. many gifts
We are here
We are with you
We are here with a wonderful Kehilla
Today you lead us
Thank you very much
Over the centuries millions of people have lived and died to keep culture for us
We live with Pam's light
Your Grandma Edie struggled every day to repair human nature's failures
Racism . Poverty . Intolerance . Injustice
May you find your own Albert Einstein. your own Rosa Parks. Bob Dylan.. Malcolm X
May you find your own Kehilla
May you discover great and ordinary people to inspire your fine instincts feelings thoughts and actions
Dear Moses .. Dear Esther
Keep on becoming your most wonderful selves
I love you ..Dad
May 26, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1940 Like it was yesterdayThey leave me at my childcare place in Arcadia for two nights.
1940 Like it was yesterdayThey leave me at my childcare place in Arcadia for two nights.
The mother and father take baby Frankie on a weekend to Ojai.
Two strange women take my clothes off to naked and try to give me a bath.
I scream my ass off 'til they give up and turn off the lights.
Apr 22, 2010
Apr 20, 2010
INTERNET NEWS FLASHER
DANE .DENIES .USING .PETs
Performance Enhancing Technologies
see: ..BALCO.. Steroids ..AdobePhotoshop
Admitting barely-detectable-digital-addictionNikon's .D80 and Apple's iPhoto '08
"Some Of My Best Friends Are Users""You'll Damn Well Get What I Give You"
Bill .Enters Half-Way-House ..1/19/2010
Demons..Rumors..Clouds ..Hall of Fame Hopes .Damn Dim.
Reaping What Others Sow
Performance Enhancing Technologies
see: ..BALCO.. Steroids ..AdobePhotoshop
"Some Of My Best Friends Are Users""You'll Damn Well Get What I Give You"
Bill .Enters Half-Way-House ..1/19/2010
Demons..Rumors..Clouds ..Hall of Fame Hopes .Damn Dim.
Apr 19, 2010
Mar 26, 2010
Mar 15, 2010
Mar 13, 2010
Edith .Thacher .Dane
1913 - 2002
OVS-KBS-Vassar, BA Science, then:
(beloved-uncle-yale-doc-dick-preserver):
"Edith, you (woman) can't be a Doctor" !
So:
Teacher!
Primary Care Giver!
Lab Tech!
Social Activist!!
Justice Seeker Always!!!
Do Your Best - Give Back.
Thank You .Mom ..Love .Bill
And this is only the ending:
The Tell-Tale-Son:
All of a sudden Edie
decided to leave Sierra Madre.
Within three months She, Nancy, Frank and I had
found Willow Glen Villa in San Jose, sold the house,
packed her up, and physically moved everything.
It took two extra trips in my wagon to bring all her plants.
We photographed Mom's living room, (etc) so we could
carefully reconstruct her 7' x 12' display shelves -
a collection of objects: travels, gifts, oddities -
in her new, one bedroom apartment. Frank rebuilt it again
in her 'assisted living' apartment.
Then again when we moved Mom to Nancy's.
Her favorite "stuff" went with her, as it had since childhood.
'Hospice Week' at Nancy's house Mom lived in her room
surrounded with 'furnishings' which had been within
feet of her self, as far back as we could remember.Edie died very quietly right there with.
It was just getting dark June 23rd 2002
Mar 12, 2010
Mar 11, 2010
Edie's Last Days:
Mom has a double room at Kaiser.
Curtain, and older couple's voices, next bed over.
They've been arguing about the wife going home, etc !
Edie is in and out - stream of consciousness mumblings.
(It was always entertaining and cried out for 'sense making')
She suddenly sits shot up straight, and in loud and no uncertain terms,"For God's sake take her home.
Can't you see she wants to go home"
Mom has a double room at Kaiser.
Curtain, and older couple's voices, next bed over.
They've been arguing about the wife going home, etc !
Edie is in and out - stream of consciousness mumblings.
(It was always entertaining and cried out for 'sense making')
She suddenly sits shot up straight, and in loud and no uncertain terms,"For God's sake take her home.
Can't you see she wants to go home"
Mar 10, 2010
Edie's Last Days:
Mom has been at Kaiser for 10 days.
Today is "Decision Day". Edie has to move on.
Her Doctors must recommend her next placement.
They've tried Meds and Talk and Scans = fuzzy picture !
Her Doctors want Kaiser to pay for her to go to Rehab.
She must pass a "Mobility Exam" - Mind and Body !
In comes the 'brand new', really young, testing "Therapist".
Sweetest high voice, for elders I gather, "Good morning Edie.
Now, You have to do what I ask so you'll get that wonderful new
placement. Let's sit up. Up we go, Edie. Now let's just swing
your legs over the edge of the bed. Here we go. Try to do it all
by yourself, Edie". At this point Mom grasps her arm tight.
In a perfectly articulated, tight jawed, patrician tone,"You may try to get me to do anything you want, Dear.
It will not work. I died at ten o'clock this morning".
Mom has been at Kaiser for 10 days.
Today is "Decision Day". Edie has to move on.
Her Doctors must recommend her next placement.
They've tried Meds and Talk and Scans = fuzzy picture !
Her Doctors want Kaiser to pay for her to go to Rehab.
She must pass a "Mobility Exam" - Mind and Body !
In comes the 'brand new', really young, testing "Therapist".
Sweetest high voice, for elders I gather, "Good morning Edie.
Now, You have to do what I ask so you'll get that wonderful new
placement. Let's sit up. Up we go, Edie. Now let's just swing
your legs over the edge of the bed. Here we go. Try to do it all
by yourself, Edie". At this point Mom grasps her arm tight.
In a perfectly articulated, tight jawed, patrician tone,"You may try to get me to do anything you want, Dear.
It will not work. I died at ten o'clock this morning".
Mar 9, 2010
Mar 8, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1964 Not working
We have jobs at SKS Die Casting.
Black, Willie Goodjoint, 63, my casting machine leader.
Black, William Jones, 25, factory custodian.
White, Bill Dane, 25, grunt n gofer.
We eat lunch and talk together for 3 months.
Brown-bag sitting on 4th Street.
Luckily, Willie keeps his job.
William and I are laid off.
We visit each other's apartments twice.
In downtown Oakland with a wife and two daughters.
In Richmond with a wife and a painting space.
We're both smart enough. . We use our words.
We can feel what's coming. . We're not super-stars.
1964 Not working
We have jobs at SKS Die Casting.
Black, Willie Goodjoint, 63, my casting machine leader.
Black, William Jones, 25, factory custodian.
White, Bill Dane, 25, grunt n gofer.
We eat lunch and talk together for 3 months.
Brown-bag sitting on 4th Street.
Luckily, Willie keeps his job.
William and I are laid off.
We visit each other's apartments twice.
In downtown Oakland with a wife and two daughters.
In Richmond with a wife and a painting space.
We're both smart enough. . We use our words.
We can feel what's coming. . We're not super-stars.
Jan 14, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1944 1st grade Mrs. Marchand
Perfect rows. Facing teacher, I'm far right in back.
Raise my hand to go to the bathroom. "Not now, Billy".
Three more times, "Not now, Billy !""Not Now, Billy !!""NOT NOW, BILLY !!!"
I feel the warm running over my legs. Wet pants. Big puddle.
I leave the room.. Can't remember coming back.
Jan 13, 2010
Jan 12, 2010
Jan 11, 2010
Jan 9, 2010
Jan 8, 2010
Jan 6, 2010
Jan 5, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1940s SilverPines Camp and Sleep-Overs
It's not fun if you wet your bed.
Camp, at night and in the morning, goes real badly.
Cabin-Buddy. Heine Kuechler's compassion saves two summers:
"Don't worry, Billy.. We'll just hang it up to dry"
And we hang it up a lot.
In 7th grade I stay awake all night at Cutler's to escape the demon.
In 7th grade I stay awake all night at Cutler's to escape the demon.
The father leaves our house - the demon goes with.
Jan 3, 2010
Childhood-Story:
1945 Frankie's Accident
I'm playing in the backyard.
Frank is 5, takes my bike and rides off around the corner.
People are yelling and hollering.
We run down the block to find him lying in the street.
All our neighbors are there.
My father screams at me , "Go home Billy. Go home. Get out of here."
Two weeks later Frank comes out of the coma.
I teach him how to walk and talk again.
I don't remember the father being there.
Jan 2, 2010
Jan 1, 2010
Dec 31, 2009
Dec 30, 2009
Dec 24, 2009
Dec 23, 2009
Dec 13, 2009
The Sickened:
We think and feel about it more and less.U.S.A. Citizens' Health Care Is SiCKO!
Obama - Doctor Fresh Air - a chance to get better ?!
BUT! Our consciousness, will, power. to move beyond
corporate fascism to Single Payer and Civilization ?! Sad !
Lucky! Our family has a real costly health plan for: babies, hernias,
new hip, colonoscopies, hamartoma, melanoma and on it will go.
We think and feel more and less - about class and money
and luck and entitlement - about empathy.There are people working to change this.
There are also people who say they are not naive.
They tell us this is how it is and was everywhere and forever.
Looking at my images after photo hunting and gathering I know
stuff is always close by; health - housing - sex - war - greed -
injustice and on it goes .....
Good luck to all of us, Bill
We think and feel about it more and less.U.S.A. Citizens' Health Care Is SiCKO!
Obama - Doctor Fresh Air - a chance to get better ?!
BUT! Our consciousness, will, power. to move beyond
corporate fascism to Single Payer and Civilization ?! Sad !
Lucky! Our family has a real costly health plan for: babies, hernias,
new hip, colonoscopies, hamartoma, melanoma and on it will go.
We think and feel more and less - about class and money
and luck and entitlement - about empathy.There are people working to change this.
There are also people who say they are not naive.
They tell us this is how it is and was everywhere and forever.
Looking at my images after photo hunting and gathering I know
stuff is always close by; health - housing - sex - war - greed -
injustice and on it goes .....
Good luck to all of us, Bill
Dec 12, 2009
Backyard-Visitors:
Friends, Hummingbirds, Chickadees, Titmice, Nuthatches, Sparrows, Finches, Towhees, Woodpeckers, (an occasional Peckerwood) , Doves, Crows (Moses says they're Ravens), Flycatchers, a Jay, Squirrels, Raccoon families - we have 4 feeders, 2 baths, 9 trees: Princess 'Bush', Weeping River Wattle, Himalayan Birch, Strawberry Tree, Norfolk Pine, Japanese Coral Bark Maple, Canary Island Pine, Brazilian Pepper, Roscoe Maple, half a Bottle Brush, bamboo, vines, Edie succulents, all Nancy's succulents-plants-flowers . +
Friends, Hummingbirds, Chickadees, Titmice, Nuthatches, Sparrows, Finches, Towhees, Woodpeckers, (an occasional Peckerwood) , Doves, Crows (Moses says they're Ravens), Flycatchers, a Jay, Squirrels, Raccoon families - we have 4 feeders, 2 baths, 9 trees: Princess 'Bush', Weeping River Wattle, Himalayan Birch, Strawberry Tree, Norfolk Pine, Japanese Coral Bark Maple, Canary Island Pine, Brazilian Pepper, Roscoe Maple, half a Bottle Brush, bamboo, vines, Edie succulents, all Nancy's succulents-plants-flowers . +
Dec 7, 2009
Childhood-Story:
1949-50 two, six week summers at Silver Pines Camp, 30 miles east of Redding
First summer I don't pay much attention to the Silver Belt Buckle competition.
We collect points for every kind of 'sporting' event over the summer.
We fish, swim, shoot, horse, clean, and big-points! = find an Indian Arrowhead.
Second summer,
I know I can win it if I find an arrowhead in the final days - our totals are posted.
There's a small small lake half a mile over the hill. I get permission to hike over.
Lost Lake is 100 yards long rock-stone shore the length - other side, banks.
I .hands-n-knees. back-n-forth . for three hot-dry hours.
This feeling of "I'm-gonna-find-it" has been with me since '38. I know it well.
Just have to keep on Truckin'.
Hour number four I find my no-doubt Indian Arrowhead.
Two and a half inches, brown-gray, shallow-notched-sculpted to it's point.
Two times I lie face down and cry out loud at my camp:
..Alone in the woods, stick-leader-fly-cool-mossy-creekside. my first fish.
..Alone in the rocks and stones with the Arrowhead.
1949-50 two, six week summers at Silver Pines Camp, 30 miles east of Redding
First summer I don't pay much attention to the Silver Belt Buckle competition.
We collect points for every kind of 'sporting' event over the summer.
We fish, swim, shoot, horse, clean, and big-points! = find an Indian Arrowhead.
Second summer,
I know I can win it if I find an arrowhead in the final days - our totals are posted.
There's a small small lake half a mile over the hill. I get permission to hike over.
Lost Lake is 100 yards long rock-stone shore the length - other side, banks.
I .hands-n-knees. back-n-forth . for three hot-dry hours.
This feeling of "I'm-gonna-find-it" has been with me since '38. I know it well.
Just have to keep on Truckin'.
Hour number four I find my no-doubt Indian Arrowhead.
Two and a half inches, brown-gray, shallow-notched-sculpted to it's point.
Two times I lie face down and cry out loud at my camp:
..Alone in the woods, stick-leader-fly-cool-mossy-creekside. my first fish.
..Alone in the rocks and stones with the Arrowhead.
Dec 4, 2009
Dec 2, 2009
Nov 29, 2009
Nov 11, 2009
It occurs to me that you all may have small knowledge of my relationship with my brother since '40.
In the presence of his health situation, and given our familial relationships, this may interest you.
There was some sibling stuff, we fought a bit.
I knew he was more likable. The parents knew it - ok.
As kids we rarely played together - didn't share friends or interests. Not much in common.
I played mostly with older kids. We didn't hang out at schools. He went to a different jr hi.
Went to summer day camps alone - went 6 weeks to Silver Pines at 11 and 12 years old.
Went away to Midland for 10th and 11th grades - went into the army after 1 yr at PCC.
I always had jobs - spent small time at home.
I always had jobs - spent small time at home.
Went to Berkeley and Cal in '61. We had USPS and phones - no social media.
We didn't appear to care much what each other did over all the years. I believe we didn't.
One doesn't know what effects 'changes' will present.
When the father died it meant nothing - dead to me since '38.
When mom went down it was natural to help my sister deal in my small ways - only 7 weeks.
Mom was also very entertaining as she went. It was a quiet emotional experience for me.
My life with mom had used up the sub & noisy stuff over the years.
We were never hugs-close. Cerebral sharing we did ok.
Now, I don't well understand his diagnosis and prognosis. I do have the general picture.
He trusts you - his daughter and son - to navigate for him.
I assume he is way more upset and fearful than he presents.
If I can get thru timing and phone issues I call him once a week.
Talking to him is what you know it to be.
I have always hoped the best for him.
I am not you. Sincerely Bill. 04/01/14
Oct 12, 2009
Sep 19, 2009
Childhood-Story:
1943 WWII Time
I go to neighborhood mail boxes and collect for two weeks.
People start asking around about missing mail.
In my secret hideout I have letters from sons in the War.
I tell them, "I think I found your letters".
It takes me 'til 1945 to say, "Sorry" to the soldier next door.
It takes me 'til 1945 to say, "Sorry" to the soldier next door.