Amazed again:
I Do Not Control This Head
Two days ago I write the migraine story below
Yesterday I have a real nice classic migraine
First one in way over a year

Childhood Story:
Small ones start when I'm 12
Only 1-2 a year - lucky
When I'm 41 . I find out what they're called
1953 - my first .'real-big' .Classic MigraineMidland School ..hot May . oaks n brown hills .
Weekend work ..clearing brush around the swimming hole
My vision starts to go ..zig zag aura ..I gotta go lie down .fast
In fifteen minutes I can't see much
Speech and memory leaving ..to arrive soon at close to zero
I make it down to the horse barn and find a pile of hayDamn! ...Right now ...Far from what ...I'm gonna die
Nether head .... It's still magic here .
Darker . cooler ..barn smells. ..horse sounds
Breathing .

The Old Photo Album

Thank You. James Danziger.

Note to a Professor:
Thank you .J . (for the appreciated invite to do a guest visit)
I wonder if we met on the old Lone Mountain ...
I go into classrooms a lot as a K-5 Sub in Albany
Curious change after 33 years at Berkeley HS
Anxious every day
Luckily for you, Professor, .you have electric stuff
You can 'project' my . billdane.com .on a used wall
Turn yourselves loose. fa sho ... Let 'em scream
Tear this fucka up .. Shit everywhere ..Sticks n stones ...
I'm cool ..Not a bit anxious ..Here .sippin' high mtn Pu-erh
I mean . .out .finding pictures
AND!. I love this .billdane.com
We're still tweakin' it ..with Bombay Sapphire assistance
Let me know if you find a way to .'use it' .with your students
Best for you .J .. Bill

I dream:
I'm in a desert ..dirt dust brush ..
Graffiti all over a roofless three sided stucco dilapidation
An empty two lane highway
Naked .beside the road .. waiting .. I'm sitting in a toilet bowl

Hers is hidden. 'by chance'.
I talk with Diane Arbus for a week at the swimming pond in '71.
She makes pictures with people.People who cannot .and-or .will not .hide their. 'difference'.
They trust Diane.They know she is one of them - us.

Childhood Story:
Edie is twice "Person-of-the-Year"
in West Pasadena's .Black Community Newspaper.
She tells me these are her most happy honors.
Mom creates and works with "Head Start" for years.She is Chair of the San Gabriel Valley's
"Economic Opportunity Program".
She tells me these are her most meaningful 'contributions'.

MR. NICK POWERS
It is impossible for most of us to know
how difficult it is to construct a website.
The 'under-world' of .billdane.com .is a maze.
'Behind' every ingredient that is visible to us
there is a complex 'field-of-code' which must
be known, understood and manipulated by
Nick Powers, aka "thesleepingcobra".
That's Not All, Folks !
Nick's seminal imagination lives here
Partner in creating this .billdane.com.
I am one grateful and exhilarated comrade.
I am one lucky second-chair father-in-law ! .
And there's the Monet and Romy right there !Love Bill

I hear:
... I'm gonna have a good ass son ...

Nora Fanshel"The Migrating Snowgoose" Series

I hear:

... Sam, .I donno where ta hover ...

Giancarlo Alberto Mori
Photography Man
Fine Fellow

Childhood-Story:
One night, .unnoticed, .X and I .discover her mother 'compromised'.How could she ? In a car ? .A mother, with husband and kids.
Anxiety-anger-confusion ... we track her for days.
We tell X's father.
He seems to act.
We tire of it all .real fast !
Turns out .X's father is a 'womanizer'.
We love them both.It's not easy to be a teenager .or 'adult'.

Thanks Again ..Jin Zhu,. "killeryellow.com" !

Weston Naef emailed me today.
I have pictures in 2 shows at The Getty, today.
It's news to me.

I hear:... compromises ... I don't think she remembers ...
... I wanna be rational about it ... meeting ... racist ...

I hear:... you know the white ones no longer fit in the big one ...
... 21st century ... only one completely dilapidated tree ...

Childhood-Story:
Wee-1950s-Teens Applied to,. Put-Down-Received .or Purge-Requested
As in, .I got .or. I need :
A ream..steam. n a .dry clean

My Ground-Up-Caveman-Diet?