Dec 22, 2014

The enemies are  human-nature   capitalism    the global 0.5% + wannabees.
We won't but entertain racist-oligarchs  by smashing each other in the streets.
I believe this is the age of global  scandal    homeland   house-of-cards ...
Has every age felt like the ending.
Whatevers...   KEEP ON TRUCKIN'...

Dec 18, 2014

Dec 17, 2014

Michael Brown - Ferguson Missouri
Honored by Esther Dulberg Dane 

I have a facebk home page wit all your posts... dont i ?!  
Os   lil'billy
= late Blumer = my mother's mother's family name
like her yale doc uncle who told top of class Vassar Edie - 'women can't be docs'
she listened =ed her fave n only real male role model father-sub
Edith Thacher = '30s+ pinko commie socialist & med tech worker + + + + +
Luck? Chance? Thank Yous?!

Edie helped really fine progressive moves in our Sierra Madre-Pasadena area + !  
Rght up to her fianale in '02 !

Dec 14, 2014

Too Often! 
Folks can/will Not get inside other heads/words/pictures.
"Why did you say that...why do that ?!
Are you so fuckin' out of it? - disaffected - loony - whatever ?!"
I can be just like this also !
We just gotta KEEP ON TRUCKIN'...

Dec 12, 2014

Get Behind Our Black Community Voices - Their Truths !
Richmond California  
Police Chief Chris Magnus Joins Anti-Police Brutality Protest


+ Happier Day

Dec 9, 2014

I took my actual UCSF MRI report and work/played  'with myself!'  fun for myself!  for a few of you?  
(Damned if this and/or that.)

I am not sure   it is not clear  my pictures   this stuff   the past  right now   relationships  writing thinking feeling
You know  there are the times when even I know I may have lost it     apologies?   retractions?    regrets?   
​Must keep on building my consciousness​   living  without causing pains I can recognize and consider.
Looking for pleasure  in all forms   instinct and gut  and as much thinking as possible!
Must be culpable for my public sharing  fa sho! 
And this, the:
UCSF REPORRR . . .  'well'  not exactly:
Semi-Random BRAIN MRI: 12/5/2014 6:29 PM  following our ho-ho holiday schedule = Cheers!?
CLINICAL HISTORY: +- 76 years old penis with African origins & attached parts + history of hemorrhagic stroke ++++++  = wreckage.
Comrade
known with melanoma, from left upper back - approach wit care ?  Rule out underlying nasty metastatic disease from melanoma ... Please.
COMPARISON - for office party thing only: 10/18/2014 MRI
TECHNIQUE: Multiple slice-sequences through the brain were acquired at 1.5 Tesla = he didn't feel a thing...physically - seemed happy to chat ... I remember him.
CONTRAST MEDIA: Intravenous gadolinium chelate was administered for post-contrast imaging - sadly w/o the usual table dancing effect - weed next time.
FINDINGS:
There is no reduced diffusion the brain parenchyma or calvarium. No hydrocephalus, midline shift or brain herniation ... believin' whatever works.
There is no suspicious intracranial enhancement = this fucker's an historical pinpoint to the minus 1Kth.
The prior hemorrhagic lesion in the right occipital lobe is seen as a slightly smaller zone of susceptibility artifact...creep could have at least grown up.There is no associated suspicious enhancement or new mass effect to suggest an underlying lesion - legions will be delt with if they show - call 911 - duh!
Unchanged numerous foci of T2/FLAIR signal hyperintensity involving the supratentorial brain parenchyma and also the central pons - do not fuck with us - it's late.These are nonspecific but most likely represent a consequence of chronic small vessel ischemic disease = get him back to his transients - in his oh so small vessels - thinks he's cool.
IMPRESSION:
Expected evolution of right occipital hemorrhagic focus, without evidence of underlying evolving lesion - thinks normal vision coming soon - let 'im sleep.
No evidence of intracranial metastatic disease = sweet - why the heart-on-sleeve mouth ?!   anti-puritan strain?   shares shit.
Not recommended for catheterizational family-home care = ?     get his BP up  fooo     carb the sucker   
Luck'll bottom fer ol' ¡EWB!   ie: be also: EndtittyWhiteBoy   
dream-on  us
END OF IMPRESSION:   boooyaaa!

Dec 8, 2014

! Thank You for being here n there !
I 'trapped' you into hearing my 9/13/14  stroke story
and the  'maybe caused by loose melanoma cells'  ongoing diagnosis.
Last MRI today = No cancer cells in head.
I have a manageable visual disturbance of vision  but nothing much else.
1% chance of repeat hemorrhagic stroke   if Blood Pressure is controlled.
Mostly  folks don't know what we're going thru    our mazes . . .
Whatever the Right Ways to deal with shit may be for each of us . . .
A plan   ethic   a moment's need or want   I chose to add to your pile.
Good luck for all of us  
Os  Grateful Bill

Indulged myself with this one ... let the sharing gene run loose!
when i'm really going     i'll shut up     you won't notice

Dec 7, 2014

Killed - Michael Brown - Eric Garner + + + + + + + + + + + + + +
The Black Community Must Speak Their Own Truths.
Do not enable righteously alienated angry entitled white 'protestors'.
Persons who publicly disrespect The Soul Of The Black Experience.
Persons whose violence pollutes the message of Black Americans.
Persons piggybacking their agendas onto The Black American Experience.
Get-Back.  Get-Behind.   Help.
MRI was fun - always good people outside the tube - inside is all about inside = just fine.
Doc tomorrow is another day - special trimmings and various thoughts n feelings +
Fortunate to be leaving this limbo for another.

Dec 3, 2014

Dear People.
Of course  all lives matter, which is sadly, historically, irrelevant  because
BLACK LIVES DO NOT MATTER.
Ergo "BLACK LIVES MATTER"  Because They Haven't.
They Don't.
White lives matter.
Effective clue: I am not profiled + + + + + 
Myths-Structures of class - white 'race' superiority - economics have plagued the world for centuries.
THE DEHUMANIZATION OF THE OTHER.
Nasty murderous shit flows-on... 
Intentionally or Not and promulgated by media-individuals-groups-church-state-tech-capitalism-art-'history'  + + +
And by the  beside-the-point: ALL LIVES MATTER.
THEY DON'T.
ALL LIVES MATTER lacks perspective-confuses folks-disrespects the Black Experience +++ and rationalizes more evil acts.
Effective clue:
Can you stand in front of any black person and tell her that all lives matter.
When all lives are actually equal - perhaps all lives will actually matter.
Os,  Bill
"BLACK LIVES MATTER"
blacklivesmatter.com/herstory/
"SURJ"
www.showingupforracialjustice.org/