Every time I go out to photograph
I tell myself, .I ought to be able to
find possible pictures in any and every
'environment' I pass through, damn it !
What's wrong, Billy Boy ?!
Nothin'.I just can't will myself to find a picture.Something grabs me - I grab it !
Nov 11, 2009
It occurs to me that you all may have small knowledge of my relationship with my brother since '40.
In the presence of his health situation, and given our familial relationships, this may interest you.
There was some sibling stuff, we fought a bit.
I knew he was more likable. The parents knew it - ok.
As kids we rarely played together - didn't share friends or interests. Not much in common.
I played mostly with older kids. We didn't hang out at schools. He went to a different jr hi.
Went to summer day camps alone - went 6 weeks to Silver Pines at 11 and 12 years old.
Went away to Midland for 10th and 11th grades - went into the army after 1 yr at PCC.
I always had jobs - spent small time at home.
I always had jobs - spent small time at home.
Went to Berkeley and Cal in '61. We had USPS and phones - no social media.
We didn't appear to care much what each other did over all the years. I believe we didn't.
One doesn't know what effects 'changes' will present.
When the father died it meant nothing - dead to me since '38.
When mom went down it was natural to help my sister deal in my small ways - only 7 weeks.
Mom was also very entertaining as she went. It was a quiet emotional experience for me.
My life with mom had used up the sub & noisy stuff over the years.
We were never hugs-close. Cerebral sharing we did ok.
Now, I don't well understand his diagnosis and prognosis. I do have the general picture.
He trusts you - his daughter and son - to navigate for him.
I assume he is way more upset and fearful than he presents.
If I can get thru timing and phone issues I call him once a week.
Talking to him is what you know it to be.
I have always hoped the best for him.
I am not you. Sincerely Bill. 04/01/14
